Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be this for the wrong reason; a course in miracles as an easy way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.